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Saturday, June 28, 2008

It's been more than a week now. To be exact it's the 10th day I lost someone so dearest to me. Days past yet memories are vividly imprinted. Not a day I cant ease my mind off with grandpa. Saying is a simple task, saying to let go is not as difficult as well. Looking through those photos with grandpa around our side is a bliss, thinking through you tear. His warmth smile, his grip, his hug, his words, his actions and his pain just seems like yesterday. I feel like forgoing all this memory cuz it's really hurtful knowing he wasnt by our side any longer.

Adapting to the new ambient now is the hardest thing we can do. Used to shout for ah gong ah ma even before stepping into their unit, but now it seems awkward. Yes, totally awkward in a sorrow way. Knowing I can only send my regards, my misses, my words and my thoughts just only through those silent prayers and murmur. Praying so hard, hoping all these silent messages can just be deliver to him.

On the 7th day, most of the grandchildren were staying over at grandma's unit. Yin, jl, von, vin, weijie and me were squeezing ourselves in grandparent's room. Hoping grandpa could come back yet none were feeling alright either. Majority barely had an hour or 2 hours of sleep. Grandma on the other side was waiting as well.

Grandpa returned back silently? We seek for an answer.

Treasures our love ones, have no regret.


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